Who says all you need to do is to juggle?

That's what you read in papers, magazines whenever they interview a high-power woman, who's way up there in her career and has a family at the same time. ".. all you need to do is to juggle between your job and your family..."

That's pretty much bullshit, I say. It's never as easy as juggling. Juggling means you have one ball in one hand at one time, while some is in the air, waiting to land on your hand again. Juggling means there's a proper rhythm to when the ball's in the air, or in your hand. Juggling means you can see the ball and predict when it'll be in your hand.

Work & babies don't work that way. They can be right there, needing your fullest attention at the same time, tearing you into half mentally & physically. There's no rhythm whatsover, when it comes to a sick baby or a sick employee. They just pick their own sweet time to fall sick! And hell no, we can't predict what's coming up next when it comes to emergencies.

Sometimes I miss being just a full-time slugger at work. But then again, I won't trade having my cute little boy for anything in the world.

It's hard being a working mother. You feel guilty leaving your child at home & your heart breaks when you see him going to his nanny instead of you for comfort. You hate yourself for missing all the 'first-times' in his life. You wish you can be by his side all day long. But then leaving a newly set up business is totally out of the question when every little thing plays an important part in making the business a success. It's not easy to let your employee have a true sense of ownership in the business and to fight their assses to make it a success. Most of the times, we do need to be there.

And honestly, there isn't any easy way or simple formula on how to "jugle" work and family. Sometimes, you just need to work really hard on maintaining work and being there for your child. Sacrifices are a must when it comes to personal time and space. And accepting that often times, things will go crazy and totally out of control and that you just need to try your best to make it all OK. But at the same time, be grateful for the good that you come across, no matter how small they are, because, I think, that's the only thing that will keep you going.